Lost in Translation

Candy Magazine - Lost In Translation

  • Model: Rieke S. (AVE)
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  • Candy Magazine (Phillipines)
  • May 2013

So Mark surprised me today by emailing me scans from our spread from Candy Magazine!! My copy has been collecting dust back home for awhile now, and I’m so glad to finally get to see them haha.

You’d expect coordinating a shoot with a foreign stylist via email to be a complete nightmare, but working with Sam was such a lovely experience that I want to do it again and again. Come to Tokyo, Sam!!!

Seeing Chinatown through the eyes of a tourist was really refreshing as a Singaporean who never quite invested in the local sights. I think our team really resembled a tour group, complete with that random Asian tourist zealously snapping away (me)

Loved the styling. Loved the hair. Loved the makeup. Loved how Rieke instantly got the mood Sam and I were going for.

Absolutely loved how all the photos turned out – one of my favourite shoots from the start of this year fo’ shure ♥

 

Behind-the-scenes

Our (A) Team!!


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Make Art (and maybe some mistakes)

Just the kind of inspirational reminder that everyone who’s trying to make a living by making things (up) needs.

Neil Gaiman has been a huge influence on me ever since I discovered an issue of Sandman lying on the piano behind my desk. I was 13, and my brother spent the next 4 years trying to hide its extremely-inappropriate-for-a-preteen-who-should-be-reading-chicken-soup-instead content from me. (It didn’t deter me of course.)

In the past 3 years, I got to live through some really amazing times and met some of the most fantastic people, and yet all that I’ve felt after the initial giddiness is a dull weight on my heart that seems to have stopped me from reacting to things like a proper human being.

You see, that’s all I did. I lived through it.

 
I may have appreciated these opportunities and expressed surprise and shock and awe and sometimes disappointment

But I didn’t enjoy any of these things nearly half as much as I should have.

I wanted to be professional. I didn’t want to be disappointed. I was terrified that I wouldn’t/couldn’t deliver.
I was so scared that it wouldn’t happen at all.

 
And now, even now – I’m wasting time worrying, overthinking, and fearing

(then rinsing and repeating daily)
 

There’s a voice inside me that fears that I don’t know how to have fun anymore.

Or how to not have fun solely for the sake of my work.
 
Here’s an example: I used to have fun on rollercoasters.
Now I cling onto the seat and desperately pray that the ride doesn’t fail technically

 

 
“So what do you do?”
 
“I guess I’m a fashion photographer”
 
“And what do you do in your spare time?”
 
“I refresh my email over and over until I receieve something and then proceed to derive satisfaction from being professional and getting booked for jobs and being acknowleged by people whom I barely know.
 
Then I meet people when I feel like my eyes are about to bleed and we

 
eat a lot
 
drink a lot
 
stay up a lot
 
talk a lot
(about work, of course)

and I end up sleeping at terrible times and I wake up feeling unproductive and miserable
so I work a lot
more

 
 
I’m in a foreign land and this reduced pace of work should feel like a holiday but instead I’m fearing I’ve already forgotten how to holiday. That I’m wasting my time here by attempting to take it easy and food and chores and meals and money and I miss my comfort zone and work derived satisfaction and fulfilment

 
Point is, I’d like to think that this video came before it was too late (for me)

(and maybe even you)

so I’m going to bed now

and figure how to unlearn everything I think I know tomorrow
 

[EDIT: Just watched this and now I feel extra guilty for being clueless about how to enjoy a pretty good life. I have first world problems, through and through]

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Last Last Friday Night


Last (last) Friday night, Alisa and Arekusu brought me to TOMMY’s anniversary party where I bumped into Yukiko (whom I befriended shortly before I left for Tokyo). The ignorant tourist in me instantly surfaced.

“Is this a very popular brand in Japan??”

“It’s American. As in, you know, Tommy Hilfiger…?”"

“OH……………..”

Alisa later informed me that we were essentially sharing the really packed store space with plenty of famous people. Wish I was capable of recognizing some of them!

A couple of famous people whom I can't pose the faces of. The animal heads are pretty close to their actual expressions...!

Famous people who requested that I censor their faces. The animal heads are pretty close to their actual expressions…!

Or not. If you’re an awkward penguin like I am, I’ve learnt that it’s best to be clueless about celebrity so that you can act like your normal natural self around them.

For instance, I met a super friendly and warm talent/model/performer at Alisa’s mother agency on Saturday and it wasn’t until he left that I realized that he was………………..

JONTE MOANING, Beyonce’s choreographer!!! You have my number, Jonte – call me!!

I’m still creepily asking cute girls for photos on Harajuku, but I’m glad that I’ve started doing test shoots with model agencies here!! I’ve also discovered that I’m capable of frying chicken (but I tried and I still cannot fry eggs lol), and making pasta!

WHO KNEW?! Maybe there’ll even be a ghetto culinary focused post in the near future?!?!?

A really nice girl that I bumped into opposite Laforet. Loved her hair – that’s also how I hope my roots will turn out!

Stephanie Hannon

Celebrity Neko

Sneak preview of my very first test shoot in Japan!

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Running to Nippon

Running to Nippon

Hello, Harajuku gal

Long story short, I’m now in Japan and I’m living here alone for 3 months.

I got the idea some time in October last year – a friend told me about how another friend was living in Tokyo by teaching English. I’ve always wanted to live overseas by myself , but I didn’t realize that there were other options besides studying overseas.

I haven’t pursued a degree for a couple of reasons, namely that I’m really awful at the whole academic thing, and that I’m really reluctant on spending that money unless the  course can offer me knowledge (on a subject that I’m passionate about) that work/hands-on experience can’t offer.

Most of my friends are studying in uni now, and some of them have  even graduated. Incidentally, the time it takes for my fellow coursemates to complete national service is also the deadline that I’d given myself to try out photography as a career option.

And regardless of how encouraging the past 2 years have been, my age and my inexperience constantly bugged me… and others, I’m sure.

Things is, with enough practice, anyone (with a decent amount of taste) can take a pretty photograph. Having grown up in the most sheltered environment possible (super-safe Singapore + incredibly supportive parents), I’ve always felt that my photos (or perhaps even myself as an individual) lack the kind of depth or flavor that only life experience can create*

*Is there a synonym of ‘taint’ with a positive meaning instead? If I say that I’m not well-marinated yet will you get what I’m driving at???

I couldn’t get a job as an English teacher in Tokyo because I lacked a degree. My emails weren’t getting any response cause they’re in English (and who would trust a random chick from some random southeast asian country, really??)

So after giving it much thought (or not that much thought, as I’d later realize), I saved up so that I’d be able to feed myself without an income, and bought a ticket to Tokyo.

“Do you speak the language?” “Have you been offered any jobs yet?!” “You don’t even know how to cook right!?!” “HAVE YOU FOUND A PLACE TO STAY AT YET?!”

“No,” I would utter. I could practically feel these extremely valid questions puncturing my enthusiasm like tiny needles.

So by the time May came around, all the excitement had dissipated. The space my enthusiasm once occupied now housed a truckload of dread instead.

I get that the story’s pretty bleak thus far, but in the week right before my departure however……. Everything whipped around the way only those people who do those mask changing acts (变脸) could!!

My friend’s friend’s friend offered me a room in his super cool and super spacious (by Japanese standards) sharehouse; I got to shoot for Nylon Japan and Elle Girl Japan thanks to the recommendation of incredible friends (Hi Nat! Hi Linda!) and coincidentally, fashion week; AND I won a laptop that can henshin into a tablet at Blueprint so I now have something to showcase my portfolio with!

IT’S SO UNBELIEVABLE (IN THE BEST WAY POSSIBLE)

I’m terrified of things that sound too good to be true, but that’s all they’ve been – too good. Special shoutout to my homie Jesus for saving my ass. Doing good deeds for the rest of my life, I promise.

I still have 0 expectations, but I firmly believe that that’s for the best. If things don’t work out, photography wise, I’d still have a pretty kickass holiday and likely-to-be embarrassing stories to share!

Speaking of which, I have so much to tell you about the amazing sharehouse I’m living in and my new housemates – but till then, here’s a bunch of photos that I took in Shibuya and Harajuku yesterday:

Maybe I should have taken a more touristy shot with something that is more obviously Japanese?

The famous Shibuya crossing.. off-peak

Random street in Harajuku

Pimped out Unicorn

The side effects of shopping on Taobao is preventing me from getting that pink pair!

(Photography by Lenne)

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We’re having a giveaway over at the Facebook page!!

Desigual Giveaway for AFF!

Want to watch a bunch of leggy models, decked out in Desigual A/W 2013, walk past you in person on Thursday, 16th May? Simply head on over to my facebook page or click on the image above! ♥

P.S How do you like my fancy doodling skills? This (above) was actually derived from this! I demand for some pats on my back as tribute.

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